3.07.2010

There are times in our lives where we get to experience something that will change our lives forever. Whether it be graduating high school, college, meeting your husband, or the birth of you child, those moments are etched in your mind forever...and you are the person you are today because of all those moments, right? Well, something...rather..someone.. that will forever be etched in my mind is Miss. Layla Grace. I started reading her journey last week when a friend of mine posted something about it on Facebook. I was in tears from that moment on. See Layla Grace is a 3 yr old little angel fighting her battle with Stage 4 neuroblastoma cancer...and the cancer is winning. I am sure I am like most people when I say that I try and not read things like this because it makes me too sad, but I truly feel God led me to read about her story. Last saturday night I cried to my husband after reading some of the twitter updates on how she was doing...asking him how on earth this could happen to such a sweet little angel...and how was I supposed to protect my little angel from this same monster? Waylen just said.."You can't....", which was totatlly not what I wanted to hear, but its true. And why this is happening to little kids all across the world is still a mystery to me, but as my husband reminded me...it is all for God's glory. At first I was like...are you kidding me? Isn't glory a happy thing? But the more I think about it and the more I pray about it I realize he is right. What this family is having to go through is pure hell...a nightmare that you never wake up from...but this little girl has inspired thousands ...close to 35,000 people to rethink the way they live their lives...Whether it be there relationship with God, their spouse, or their children, she has changed people for the better. I now hug my daughter tighter every chance I get and thank the Lord every night for the day I was able to be with her. I am reminded to not let the special moments we spend together as a family pass me by like they are guaranteed. I will love my husband more and when I stop and pause to look over and see him sitting with Harlow reading a book or playing...maybe now I will stop what I am doing to enjoy those precious moments together, all three of us as a family. Who cares if the toys don't get picked up...or the laundry doesn't get folded today..it can wait. I remember reading one of the moms blogs about how quiet the house was and how much housework she was able to do (since Layla sleeps so much now)...and how she would just give anything to have that little 2 yr old...grabbing at her ankle..asking for something...anything. Gosh...I lose it everytime I think about that, hearing her words of regret for all the times she wished she had the time without interuptions to get things done..and I just pray for thousands of days where I can't get anything done because Harlow is pulling at my leg wanting to play dress up....or to go outside. Thank you Layla Grace for being such a fighter, Thank you Shanna and Ryan for showing all of us what amazing parents look like...and how strong your faith is in such a trying time.
You can follow her journey at www.laylagrace.org

GOD SAID

“For a little while I’ll lend you a child of mine for you to cherish while she lives, and mourn for when she is gone. Look after her for me! It may be two or three years before I will call her home.

Will you care for her?

She’ll bring you love, joy and happiness and should her stay be brief, you’ll have a whole host of memories as solace from your grief.” I cannot promise she will stay, since all from the earth returns to dust, but there are lessons taught below that I want this child to learn.

Will you love her?

I’ve looked the whole world over in my search for teachers true, and from the masses that crowd life’s lane at last I HAVE CHOSEN YOU. Now will you give her all your love and not think your labor in vain and turn against me when I come to take her back home again.

I fancied that I heard you say to me: “Dear Lord your will be done, for all the joy your child shall bring the risk of grief we’ll run. We’ll shelter her with tenderness. We’ll love her while we may, and the happiness we’ve known forever grateful stay. But should the angels call her much sooner than planned, we’ll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand.”

“I’ll lend you for a little while a child of mine, God said, for you to cherish while she lives, and mourn for when she’s gone.”

Well....What happened was....

Hahaha! There is no better way to start a blog than with that. I have no excuses. Sometime back in August I fell off the "bandwagon" and just never fully recovered. Now Harlow is almost 5 months old...the "new mom of a newborn" excuse is starting to wear off and this 'lil diva is just too much to NOT write all about. So instead of trying to make up for lost time posting pictures of the day she was born until now..I will just start from today. My goal is to get at least one blog in a week... so someone please hold me accountable! I will post pics of her room though. Most of y'all got to see the beginning stages...so here is the totally pOsH and FabULouS room of lil MiSs. HarLOw gRacE...




Last weekend we went to Houston to visit my dad and Lori..along with Marita and Nick. We had a blast spending the weekend catching up and doing some shopping. Friday we had pictures taken by a friend of Lori's and she was INCREDIBLE. She did a great job and captured some really cute moments. If you are ever in the Houston area you have to look her up. You may still be able to view all the pictures at:
www.kareymiller.com/Harlow

Love,
M

8.10.2009

3-D Nightmare!!!

So...we waited and anticipated this day for months...scheduled it on Waylen's birthday so he could see his little princess......and what happens? She turns stubborn. For a while now she has been breach which is causing my belly to be huge and her kicking painful. So I decided I would have a little talk with her last night after I read her....her one book "Me and My Dad" and told her she was having a very special picture taken today and that she needs to be a good girl....She must have misunderstood me COMPLETELY!!! HAHAHA.......So her head is practically in my rib cage with her bottom resting on my right hip. And where are her legs you might ask?.....Oh they are IN FRONT OF HER FACE!!! How uncomfortable for the poor thing...and her mom. Needless to say we couldn't capture any clear pics and after 10 minutes of her slapping my belly she gave up and told us to come back at 34 weeks....We did get two cute pictures....one I posted below...looks like she has Waylens nose.....and we aren"t real sure about the rest. I have already compared every picture I have of myself and there are some similarities....YEAH!!! She is so beautiful....and already has hair on her sweet little head.....I love her and want her to come out....NOW!!!

7.08.2009

25 and a 1/2 weeks!!!!

Are we there yet...NO! Are we there yet...NO! I definitely feel like the little girl in the back of the car asking that every five minutes. Well, by now the skin is stretched so far on my belly that it feels like its gonna rip and she does all kinds of dancing in my belly!! It makes it feel like there are a couple of little ones in there! I had my diabetes check at last weeks appointment and everything came out good....and I have decided to no longer look at the scale.....nothing good comes from doing that!!!!! Don't be curious.....that's my motto. The room is at a stand still..waiting on furniture and the bedding and....all the other cool stuff....Miss Harlow Grace couldn't do without! I just tell Waylen....."She told me she has to have it or she is NOT coming out!!!" hehehhee.......Things like chandeliers.....and pretty outfits...and rugs....and lamps....guys just don't get it! Oh well! Here are a few belly pics.......and pics of Harlows first 4th of July...kinda!